05.04.07
Wanting more
It seems to be the main theme in my life lately. I want more money, I want more sleep, I want more of this and I want more of that. I can’t seem to be content with what is given to me. I have everything in the world to be great and yet I want more, more and some more. I was looking at a steeple race from the Cardinal invite this past week. My Friend Andy Smith ran an easy looking 8:35! That’s 30sec. Faster then my second place at Penn.!!! So why can’t I just be happy with my own race and call it for what it is, “my race”!? After all, I wasn’t there at the Cardinal invite, I was at Penn Instead. Would the result have been different out there as opposed to where I raced? Probably so, but I know one thing is for sure. I wouldn’t have the desire to run 8:35 as a do today had I gone to California. In the end, I’m happy with the result. Sure I could have run faster, but I think results are not as indicative as one may think. I know I’m in shape to run fast and therefore I will. It may not be this weekend or the next, but one day, I will step on that track and all the preparation, all the waiting to succeed, and be great will be answered. Less then perfect races may after all, be a blessing in disguise. They unlike good races, are the only ones that leave you pissed off! And there aint nothing more dangerous then a pissed off runner who’s in shape! So maybe wanting more isn’t so bad after all. I think one has to be careful of what he really wants. Some things are already given and you have to be content with just that. As a good friend once told me. No one deserves anything. We work for what we have and that’s why we have what we have.
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